I’m very content with how my relationship is with music.
It’s the only thing that can get inside my head and let me forget everything.
Some would say that’s an amazing thing to have, and they would wish for something that can take away everything and let them forget everything.
trust me, it’s a curse. It’s like an addictive drug that i can’t stop using.
If i disagree with someone, if i become frustrated and angry of a situation, i would simply drop the conversation, be it from my phone or in person, start playing…and forget.
"what’s so wrong with that?"
I suppose it’s an advantage, but here i am just forgetting. Not Resolving.
Therefore, after a couple days of silence, i would get a random apology and i would have no idea what it was for.
I would think that I deserve that apology, when in reality, it should have been me who said it.
See where things get bad?
Facing hard situations are difficult, but once you start running from it, you too start running away from damage that will continue to build up.
Sometimes, too much of a damage that when you realize it’s been done, you will end up resulting back to your music sanctuary and forget all about it.
I love having music to turn to, but sometimes…
it just makes the problem worse.